Does anyone else want “off the planet”? I’m at my wits end and have not found satisfaction in a very long time. Don’t get me wrong, I have good days and I believe I’ve achieved a very high sense of spiritual awareness. But, I no longer desire much more in the way of human experiences. This isn’t a death wish, rather a life wish. It’s as if I know too much to be content with pacifiers. I am definitely not sold on work for work’s sake, and having a job just to shift money from a slave master to another slave master/creditor.
Wishful thinking, but I believe there is a community of people that have come off the grid, living at peace, and truly interconnected. I look and long for that group of people who do not feed on the media to determine how life is, or how life should go. If I cannot find that community, I long for that place of solace where the earth’s elements are less brutal and I can dedicate my time living a life of simplicity and expressing myself through literary means. I am clearly in this world, and clearly not of it. I feel like the character Neo in the Matrix when he re-entered for the first time. I see people, I see where I used to eat, work, and “enjoy life”, but I am outside of that bubble. I asked for this place outside of “there”, but now I do not know what’s next. I have not found my Zion.
Bob Stickles
November 19, 2010
Zion is your heart. Love is who you are. Don’t let thought be your guide. let love. Bob
angel709
November 19, 2010
thanks bob,
I hear you, i really do. I will follow my heart, but that also means I won’t be in this place much longer; my heart is not here. These are not depressed feelings or feelings of despair. I truly do not relate to people and I speak a “foreign” language. I am the stranger, and I want to go home. I want to go where my heart is. I do not wish to learn the language of watching tv, living on pharmaceuticals, and doing things just to get along because the people surrounding me are too afraid or too asleep to speak out. I do not wish to speak out and change what people are content with. My desires have become “the elephant in the room” and no one else seems to see it, let alone know how to deal with it. It is not their responsibility, truth be told. It is my reality that is offensive to the norm. So I wait and seek for the One to guide to the place where I belong. I simply know my life has changed inside, and the outside needs to catch up…I am tired of the illusion. Did you see the movie with Jim Carrey, The Truman Show? That’s how I feel. As if I’m no longer phased by the “staged” troubles of life, and I want off the stage. Probably sounds crazy to some, and I’m okay with that too. Where do you go once your mind is free? Where do you go to stay free?