Wishful thinking, but I believe there is a community of people that have come off the grid, living at peace, and truly interconnected. I look and long for that group of people who do not feed on the media to determine how life is, or how life should go. If I cannot find that community, I long for that place of solace where the earth’s elements are less brutal and I can dedicate my time living a life of simplicity and expressing myself through literary means. I am clearly in this world, and clearly not of it. I feel like the character Neo in the Matrix when he re-entered for the first time. I see people, I see where I used to eat, work, and “enjoy life”, but I am outside of that bubble. I asked for this place outside of “there”, but now I do not know what’s next. I have not found my Zion.

I explained to them the way “good customer service” is to be conducted. A business should honor their word, and the agent who gives the word is representative of the company. It is not my fault because she did not understand policy. It was not a “slip of the tongue” nor was it retracted, she confirmed with me and it was information to her knowledge, and it should be honored.

I also voiced that I see they’d rather lose a good customer than to honor their word. I am overwhelmed with poor business practices that I’ve witnessed over the past year more than ever, YET when dealing with a business, I still expect they’ll handle their customers with care and honor AND deliver on their promise. Things in my life are as such that I truly have to choose my fights wisely. But if/when time permits, I really want to report this to the BBB. I am tired of companies giving us a big one to bite and we’re too overwhelmed with all of these giants to pursue. My pennies are too precious right now and (I repeat) I only made the choice to cut my primary cell off with the information given to me. Yes, they must hear from me again….but from another phone carrier.

We ask for mercy, prayer, and grace…we believe there are still good people out there and that God will be gracious…WELL, we are RIGHT for believing so! To God Be all the glory. This isn’t the first time God has allowed an item of mine to be returned (which is nothing less than a miracle). At the same time, I can have faith in my prayer for a return because I have also shown integrity when it faced in similar situations. It’s not tit for tat, but it DOES help when you’re praying for favor.

This testimony boosts some needed hope right now and my faith has increased not just in my connection with God, but in others in the world that still do good. It also makes me rise to the occasion even higher to return things ALWAYS. (folks stop calling it a blessing when ppl leave their valuables behind!) We are God’s angels, given the chance to show His kindness. What a gift from God and a needed stress relief with so many trials going on! Oh by the, I ended up getting the same car to rent again! I couldn’t pass up the opportunity.

p.s. I also have vowed to the Lord to utilize this camcorder more for His glory! My kids had put a self-made short video on it that I had never seen….too funny of course….But now, I can’t wait to MAKE time to make good memories and appreciate my children and this blessing.

I’m seeing so many hurting people and unhealthy relationships. People are broken and scratching for contentment in one area or the other. They are working themselves into a death. I’m frustrated because church and spirituality has often promised relief and have all too often led people astray and feeling more defeated than when they started. The government could not promise spiritual relief but promised the opportunity for a better tomorrow only for that promise to be broken.

A cry for help gone seemingly unanswered has left many in despair and hopeless. I look at my personal situation and circumstances and though I have been through multiple traumatic life-changing events, I am not without hope. Hope is greater than money. Hope is better than material pacifiers. Hope is the essence of all things working out even when there is no visible or imaginable way that it could.

I hear the cry for help. I wonder to myself, when (not if) things will change? Who will experience change? Will the true leaders rise up in the church? Will integrity be brought back to community, institutions, or only individuals on a personal level? Will the genuinely courageous souls that are not without hope begin to answer the call for help with compassion and the knowledge that they are blessed and fortunate without measure? I believe they will. I believe there are those who have been chosen to be latter-day movers and shakers to answer the cry. They not only hear the cry but they have cried. They not only sense the need, but they know that even with limited resources, they have a wealth and commodity that many do not have. They have hope.

It is finished, work well done, before You now I stand

Work review, blood washed new, purified through Christ

Reward and crown placed on my head engraved, “Eternal Life”.

~angel709

Let alone my spirit man, these things were never told.

Man became a living soul from God’s exhaling breath.

And when that soul needs to return, His inhale will bring death.

And what of the Spirit?  Wherein shall it return?

Into thine hands I commend it Father, for truly it is yours.

~angel709

The pulse of mystery then unfolds as I am bound yet free

With every breath I draw most near embracing in His best

Most pure and holy love so dear I enter to His rest

~angel709

tolerant it is not. the drive grows strong. and now there is no compromise.

doubt was crushed and left to die. fear a word that tells a lie. anxiety gone with one last sigh.

passion is awake.

~angel709